But this past two days have been horrible, and after fighting with my relatives i decided to take a couple of "palis" and stuff. I suppose i work better under pills effect.

i.m such a fuck ass, like i totally screwed last night, i shouldn.t have said anything to him, like just keep pretending there was nothing wrong and stuff. And right now i need more fucking pills. How weird that my last "deviantion" or whatever the fuck was made under the influence of xanax, i suppose the brought the political side in me. hahaha fuck.

I.m still hungry for some reason, i ate a pizza, then i ate chinese food and i.m still sort of hungry. I.m slowly killing myself. yesh, i.m rambling now, so i.m off.